Home Sweet Home

My legs felt heavy, my heart pounded fast, 30 seconds in the car, I made the phone call. 17 minutes later, I'm home. Finally..

I'll wake up tomorrow with no one to hug.

Appy. Like an Ippo

The cure for unhappiness is happiness, I don't care what anyone says.
Elizabeth McCracken, Niagara Falls All Over Again

In the Buddhist view, ultimate happiness is only achieved by overcoming craving in all forms. Aristotle saw happiness as "the virtuous activity of the soul in accordance with reason," or the practice of virtue. The Dalai Lama thinks happiness will come with practicing compassion.

Well, for me I think happiness is the undying quest of life and only can be achieved if we pursuit it in however way we may find it. There's no black and white on how to be happy. I'm happy now.

Because I'm Bored ?

Boredom is an emotional state experienced during periods lacking activity or when individuals are uninterested in the activities surrounding them.

Boredom has been defined by C. D. Fisher in terms of its central psychology processes: “an unpleasant, transient affective state in which the individual feels a pervasive lack of interest in and difficulty concentrating on the current activity.” M. R. Leary and others define boredom similarly, and somewhat more succinctly, as “an affective experience associated with cognitive attentional processes.” These definitions make it clear that boredom arises not from a lack of things to do but from the inability to latch onto any specific activity. Nothing engages us, despite an often profound desire for engagement.

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia.

Nerve wrecking

Watching CNN for the past six or seven years has always been so traumatic.

I really think that if America had a non-interventionist foreign policy, the impact on the United States by such horrendous conflicts abroad would be minimized. We as individual could disagree among each other about those conflicts, or choose not to care about them at all. As it is, even their political processes become interlinked with politics abroad, and when American treasure and diplomacy are seen behind other nations' acts of belligerence, the United States becomes a target for resentment and even terrorism. This makes it all the more important to see foreign wars with a bit of nuance and an effort at balance, but it is not always easy. It might not always be possible to be objective. All the more reason Americans should return to their Founding Fathers' policy of peace, honest friendship and free trade with all nations; entangling alliances with none.

The Israeli blockade of Gaza is an egregious violation of international law and the Geneva Conventions, such terrorism is a crime. Muslim lives are devalued. What a shame, knowing that we are all humans. Although I know that peace in Palestine is so far off but with elect-president Barack Obama coming into office this January 20th, I really hope there will be a slight change somewhere.

Let's just hope for the best.

Life is too short to live it a bad person

I always wonder, about life and our very existence. 'Why is life so complicated? Why is happiness seems so far off?' But really, life is not complicated and happiness is how you make it. It took me years to figure it out, regardless what others have told me.

Life is not complicated at all, like happiness, its how you make it. If you invite complexity in your life then complicated it becomes.. We make our lives complicated when really, life itself is simple. Live. Eat. Sleep. What we add in between is the ones that's controlling our lives, hence we control our own level of complexity.

What is life without complexity? Simplicity.

Amen.

World peace?

Another day of nothing-ness. I read today, that's productive I guess.

The situation in Gaza is heartbreaking. The Israeli foreign minister, Tzipi Livni, said the offensive was intended to change permanently the shape of Israel's conflict with Hamas. "When Israel is targeted, Israel is going to retaliate," she said. Israel has rejected calls for a ceasefire. Well I studied the structure of the UN and how they operate, intervention from the UN is very much needed right now, not just for humanitarian aid, desperate measures like this they should call for the General Assembly. As I learned, although the UN members meet once a year but when special crisis arose, they can call for special session of the General Assembly and maybe actually help out the horrible situation in Gaza right now.

In the mean time, I'm praying for the best for the Palestinians.

My List

Never really actually noticed it, right?

Speaking of stress, I am quite stressed actually, sitting in my room all day on a beautiful Sunday watching TV series. I'm not stress about that though, I mean what's there to complain but anyways it's just that every time I paused to go to the bathroom or kitchen, I thought about my 2009 resolution, I have a few but I haven't finished my list. There's a lot to do and I know almost all of it at the back of my mind, I just need to put it in black and white (maybe blue and white, but whatever) but I'm just so lazy.

Maybe I should turn off everything, take a shower, fix myself a cup of tea, lie on my bed and finish my list, I mean a new year with no new goals would be just another year. It's so sad like that.

La la la la la la.

Sleepy Head

I opened my eyes, looked for my phone. 1 new message and it was 4pm. Although I love sleeping, but every time when I wake up way past 2pm I will feel really bad that I wasted hours of that day doing nothing but asleep. The waking hours is more beautiful than the hours we spent sleeping, but still why do we waste so much time sleeping?

But why do I feel so bad when I know sleeping is such a natural part of our lives?

I'm hungry.

Hello 2009!!

It's good to be on my own bed again, in front of my computer. New year, new everything!