hmmm...

I feel that little freedom I was looking for, it’s not as good and satisfying as I thought. Some nights I reminisce and wonder what it’d be like. Regretting decisions I made.

Some nights I feel like a million bucks but never really content. I don’t know…

Maybe I just really don’t know what I’m looking for yet.

yup

so yeah.. it's been quite a different month from the past months in the past three years..

mood swings like crazy. one minute happy one minute pure sadness. most of the time mental blocking everything.

mental blocking? is that even a word? i don't know. don't care much really.