I haven't been to work in just about two weeks and I'm really at ease and it’s not good. Tomorrow I'm going to force myself to get out of bed and go to work. I can’t do this to myself. It’s self destruction.
I've been doing nothing much since. I stayed home during the day, wake up after 1 in the afternoon some days its much later, lay in bed and day dream until 2, get up, walk around the house, look for food and be back in bed by 2.30 and day dream some more. Get up at 3, watched movies, surf the internet and play computer games. I barely had anything to eat but I’ve endless supply of mineral water in my room. Whenever I feel I need to get out of my room, I'll go downstairs with my book and read.
I go out at night to see the world and eat a little. Then be back home around 3 or 4 in the morning or so and sleep. Same thing again the next day and I think I've rest well. Time for work. Hah! Its Friday tomorrow, Saturday coming after that. Yay!
