And so I write.. at the deepest point of slumber.
I have been on a long journey of self discovery. It took a long time to actually comprehend that this is what and who I am. No more no less. I am not going to find someone new beneath this skin. I am what I am. The unreal is not going to prevail and heal my sores. My weakness and strength is my own, mine to guard.
It all sound so simple. But it took me almost all my life to realize what I just realized. Reality bites. So I stopped blaming my self for choices I had made, which made me feel safe and I took responsibility for them. Then on I began to accept the unacceptable which made me see my purpose and gently wean myself from distractions.
I quit exhausting my self by trying so hard.
I could turn away from reality, I could go away for years, to the wild, the desert or to a foreign place. But I will return being the same person I am when I left. With different perspectives, opinion and views maybe. So I quit wishing my life looked some other way and began to see that as it is, my life serves my evolution. We are what we are, so make the best out of it.
Now, I could see how funny life is, how funny I am, and how funny you are.
I have been on a long journey of self discovery. It took a long time to actually comprehend that this is what and who I am. No more no less. I am not going to find someone new beneath this skin. I am what I am. The unreal is not going to prevail and heal my sores. My weakness and strength is my own, mine to guard.
It all sound so simple. But it took me almost all my life to realize what I just realized. Reality bites. So I stopped blaming my self for choices I had made, which made me feel safe and I took responsibility for them. Then on I began to accept the unacceptable which made me see my purpose and gently wean myself from distractions.
I quit exhausting my self by trying so hard.
I could turn away from reality, I could go away for years, to the wild, the desert or to a foreign place. But I will return being the same person I am when I left. With different perspectives, opinion and views maybe. So I quit wishing my life looked some other way and began to see that as it is, my life serves my evolution. We are what we are, so make the best out of it.
Now, I could see how funny life is, how funny I am, and how funny you are.
